Flashback the year's happening and bagi background skit la

Hem office seems empty now... Yup I curi tulang... :) Tapi dah pukul 5 ni, headache already since morning ngadap notebook. Need a break.

Looking forward to tomorrow. Can lepak at home and spend the day with Adam and Bi. Pity Adam la. Having working Mummy and Ayah kena tinggal at home with Bibik. But at least he is happy and healthy. Better than the time when I have to send him to his sitter house early in the morning and fetch him late in the evening. At times malam baru fetch him.

Well bit of background la...

I kahwin lewat when I was 30 in early 2007 and deliver Adam Syahmi in Jan 2008. During my maternity, I got one promotion so I came back to the office with new roles and responsibilities... I like to think that I am one tough cookie but then life quite mencabar back then... With additional workload, my working hour extended from normal 8.30am till 5.00pm to 8.30am (cannot make it any earlier la coz pepagi kena sent Adam first) till after 8pm and pernah till midnight. I always feel guilty that I don't have enough time for Adam. Syukur from April to June my parents berkorban for anak dia yang sorang ni (terukkan mcm tak pandai berdikari but byk sgt changes in my life at that point so my parents takut I break down nak manage) and decided to stay with my sis in KL. By the way my mum is scared of height time tu so takmo stay with us at our 12th floor apartment. Routine everyday I yang picked up and fetched Adam. Tired but then at least dada I lapang yang I know for sure Adam will be in good hands and I tak perlu risau. I can focus my mind dgn office work. In July, I have no choice but to send Adam to babysitter. Kesian my parents, my youngest sis nak kahwin in August so kena juga le siapkan rumah. This time I tawakal for his sitter will take good care of Adam but deep inside I am worried. I am getting more tired by the day coz this time I prefer not to leave him there any later than 8pm. Byk denggi case there. Risau I. If Adam kena macam mana? Sure I menyesal tak sudah. In August my sis Jeje kahwin and my mum decided to take one bibik la kat rumah. To make it easier guna my name. In September Bibik sampai. I tgk Bibik quite ok. Sehari dia kat rumah habis clean my house... Ishk mcm tak percaya plak. Ok gak my house ni.
First time Bibik tgk Adam, dia suka sgt (according to Bibik ah.. Dia bagitau kat my aunt Mak Tut masa raya) coz Adam happy baby. Smile sentiasa. Memikirkan Bibik ni my mum punya, although Bibik pujuk I tinggal Adam kat rumah I tak berani la. Tak sure how she will perform and takmo la kang bergantung to Bibik and kena hantar pulak Bibik balik rumah my mum kat BP. Hari ke-2 Bibik kat KL (sementara tunggu weekend) Adam buat hal. Dia mengamuk besar on the way back. I drive kereta dlm hujan and jam mcm nak nangis. Dah la penat puasa Adam melalak plak mendayu-dayu lagi. Half way kena keluarkan dia dr car seat and drive while having him on my lap. Seriously I rasa that's it. I membahayakan my baby. I decided to leave Adam kat rumah the next day and Alhamdulillah I made the right decision. Bibik very devoted to Adam. My mum plak offer for me to hire Bibik for myself. So I took up her offer and till now Bibik is with me and my hubby.

Ok ah panjang sgt ni...

Lesson leart yang I nak share with other working mums:

1. Seriously, when you start your family late and you have a demanding job strong support from family and friends are improtant. Thank God I ada parents yang sgt sayang Adam and anak dia yang mengada ni so I manage tak breakdown. My sisters pon very concern selalu call tanya I ok tak etc coz faham2 la lepas bersalin ni emotionally bukan strong sgt.

2. From my observation, Alhamdulillah since after ada Bibik and Adam stay kat rumah dia dah jarang demam walhal kat rumah mamat tu kaki aircond. Environment important for baby la. There's no place like home.

3. Having a Bibik really helps. I kira2 financially before and after ada Bibik tak jauh sgt pon duit I kena tambah untuk spending. Hantar rumah org RM300 sebulan belum masuk duit minyak hantar and amik. I still have to berkejar kemas rumah, masak makanan Adam every morning and masak after office. But now heheeh dah boleh relax skit. Now weekend je I masak. Byr Bibik RM450 je pon. Duit ubat Adam sebab dulu selalu demam pun I dah selamat tak payah keluar now.

Working Mummies or new mummies out there, I welcomed your comments and if you want to share experience or need advise, jom la share...