Am I on the right track?

Three posting letters within one and half years. Hem must be something wrong with me sampai asyik tukar Division or I am doing something right till I am in demand? Guess need to asked my bosses on that.

After my tough time in my previous Division (right after I delivered Adam if you all remember my earlier post), I got an offer to join Programme Management Office (PMO). My official transfer took effect 1st November 2008. The new scope of work is very project based and focused to a specific area for improvement. A real breather for me. My life was really hay wire before that but in the new Division, although structure wise I am reporting to one VP and function wise I have two bosses, my VP as well as my Workstream Leader, I still enjoyed my short tenure there. All of us worked smart so my working life returned to the normal 8.30am till 5.30pm. Latest by 7pm you can bet that I was already at TTDI enjoying my time with Adam. Based on the change in environment and its impact to my life, I truly believe that work environment do have big impact on you. Those who have ever taken Organisational Behaviour class, whatever they teach you is true.

In April 2009, I got another transfer letter. My Workstream in PMO has been officially closed in late March. I was assigned for another project but at the same time I was given another offer from another PMO office – HSBB PMO. Based on the potential exposure for me and better knowledge to be gained in th e HSBB PMO, my VP agreed to let me go. I moved to HSBB PMO in April. I have to admit that there are lots of thing to be learned in the new Division. Deadlines and commitment made for the project launch is key to our deliverables. Nevertheless, although the job is demanding and really challenging, again the working environment (leaders, colleague, time etc.) make me love my new job. I have two cool staff to assist me and I am still looking for my third assistant before I started my maternity leave.

All in all, my working life has improved for the better (I hope...) Pray to Allah my rezeki (my pay check to be exact) will improved as well. Three AGM positions in the last one and half years yet I am yet to receive AGM salary.. hahahah... Takpa la sure ada ganjaran nanti. Interview for promotion dah pi tinggal tunggu jawapan je. Doakan dapat. Amin.

Flashback the year's happening and bagi background skit la

Hem office seems empty now... Yup I curi tulang... :) Tapi dah pukul 5 ni, headache already since morning ngadap notebook. Need a break.

Looking forward to tomorrow. Can lepak at home and spend the day with Adam and Bi. Pity Adam la. Having working Mummy and Ayah kena tinggal at home with Bibik. But at least he is happy and healthy. Better than the time when I have to send him to his sitter house early in the morning and fetch him late in the evening. At times malam baru fetch him.

Well bit of background la...

I kahwin lewat when I was 30 in early 2007 and deliver Adam Syahmi in Jan 2008. During my maternity, I got one promotion so I came back to the office with new roles and responsibilities... I like to think that I am one tough cookie but then life quite mencabar back then... With additional workload, my working hour extended from normal 8.30am till 5.00pm to 8.30am (cannot make it any earlier la coz pepagi kena sent Adam first) till after 8pm and pernah till midnight. I always feel guilty that I don't have enough time for Adam. Syukur from April to June my parents berkorban for anak dia yang sorang ni (terukkan mcm tak pandai berdikari but byk sgt changes in my life at that point so my parents takut I break down nak manage) and decided to stay with my sis in KL. By the way my mum is scared of height time tu so takmo stay with us at our 12th floor apartment. Routine everyday I yang picked up and fetched Adam. Tired but then at least dada I lapang yang I know for sure Adam will be in good hands and I tak perlu risau. I can focus my mind dgn office work. In July, I have no choice but to send Adam to babysitter. Kesian my parents, my youngest sis nak kahwin in August so kena juga le siapkan rumah. This time I tawakal for his sitter will take good care of Adam but deep inside I am worried. I am getting more tired by the day coz this time I prefer not to leave him there any later than 8pm. Byk denggi case there. Risau I. If Adam kena macam mana? Sure I menyesal tak sudah. In August my sis Jeje kahwin and my mum decided to take one bibik la kat rumah. To make it easier guna my name. In September Bibik sampai. I tgk Bibik quite ok. Sehari dia kat rumah habis clean my house... Ishk mcm tak percaya plak. Ok gak my house ni.
First time Bibik tgk Adam, dia suka sgt (according to Bibik ah.. Dia bagitau kat my aunt Mak Tut masa raya) coz Adam happy baby. Smile sentiasa. Memikirkan Bibik ni my mum punya, although Bibik pujuk I tinggal Adam kat rumah I tak berani la. Tak sure how she will perform and takmo la kang bergantung to Bibik and kena hantar pulak Bibik balik rumah my mum kat BP. Hari ke-2 Bibik kat KL (sementara tunggu weekend) Adam buat hal. Dia mengamuk besar on the way back. I drive kereta dlm hujan and jam mcm nak nangis. Dah la penat puasa Adam melalak plak mendayu-dayu lagi. Half way kena keluarkan dia dr car seat and drive while having him on my lap. Seriously I rasa that's it. I membahayakan my baby. I decided to leave Adam kat rumah the next day and Alhamdulillah I made the right decision. Bibik very devoted to Adam. My mum plak offer for me to hire Bibik for myself. So I took up her offer and till now Bibik is with me and my hubby.

Ok ah panjang sgt ni...

Lesson leart yang I nak share with other working mums:

1. Seriously, when you start your family late and you have a demanding job strong support from family and friends are improtant. Thank God I ada parents yang sgt sayang Adam and anak dia yang mengada ni so I manage tak breakdown. My sisters pon very concern selalu call tanya I ok tak etc coz faham2 la lepas bersalin ni emotionally bukan strong sgt.

2. From my observation, Alhamdulillah since after ada Bibik and Adam stay kat rumah dia dah jarang demam walhal kat rumah mamat tu kaki aircond. Environment important for baby la. There's no place like home.

3. Having a Bibik really helps. I kira2 financially before and after ada Bibik tak jauh sgt pon duit I kena tambah untuk spending. Hantar rumah org RM300 sebulan belum masuk duit minyak hantar and amik. I still have to berkejar kemas rumah, masak makanan Adam every morning and masak after office. But now heheeh dah boleh relax skit. Now weekend je I masak. Byr Bibik RM450 je pon. Duit ubat Adam sebab dulu selalu demam pun I dah selamat tak payah keluar now.

Working Mummies or new mummies out there, I welcomed your comments and if you want to share experience or need advise, jom la share...