Tuesday, March 27, 2012

Bukan Doa Kamu Yang Makbul Sebenarnya


Seriously, I have no idea who is the original writer of this piece. I received this in my email from a business partner, Syanor. I am sharing it with all coz I find the piece beautiful. A piece that force me to self-reflect. Ya Allah, thank you for your reminder. And thank you those who prayed and doa for me and family.


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Bercakap fasal doa, saya teringat satu kisah yang sangat-sangat memberikan kesan dalam kehidupan saya. Guru-guru saya di sekolah, semenjak sekolah rendah, sangat menerapkan doa. Jadi, saya sudah dibiasakan dengan Solat Hajat, Solat Dhuha, Qiamullail, waktu-waktu doa yang mustajab seperti ketika hujan dan sebagainya agar saya rajin berdoa, dan agar doa saya makbul. Jadi, bila Allah anugerahkan saya kejayaan, saya sentiasa rasa, itu sebab saya doa den
gan bersungguh-sungguh. Namun satu cerita mengubah persepsi saya.

Cerita yang saya dengar itu begini:


Kisah berkenaan seorang abang dan seorang adik. Kedua-duanya adalah anak yatim lagi miskin. Mereka tinggal di rumah pusaka tinggalan ibu bapa mereka. Kedua ibu bapa mereka adalah hamba ALLAH yang soleh. Kedua-dua anak dididik untuk bergantung harap dengan Allah SWT.

Si abang, saban hari berdoa agar ALLAH mengubah nasib hidupnya. Dia meminta kepada ALLAH agar dipertemukan dengan isteri yang cantik lagi kaya. Dia meminta kepada ALLAH agar dirinya kaya raya.

Si Adik pula, seorang yang buta huruf. Tidak seperti abangnya, dia membaca doa pun dengan melihat kertas. Sebelum bapanya mati, dia pernah meminta bapanya menulis sesuatu di atas kertas, dan kertas itu sering dipegangnya setiap kali berdoa.

Akhirnya, Allah mempertemukan seorang perempuan yang cantik lagi kaya dengannya. Perempuan itu jatuh hati kepadanya, lantas berkahwin. Si Abang seperti mendapat durian runtuh dan kehidupannya terus berubah. Dia keluar dari rumah pusaka, dan meninggalkan adiknya.

Si Abang akhirnya kaya raya, malah terus kaya apabila dia memasuki medan bisnes. Dia sudah mula alpa dengan ALLAH, melewat-lewatkan solah, jarang membaca Al-Quran, tapi tidak pernah lalai untuk meminta kekayaan daripada ALLAH. Kalau masuk dalam bab perniagaan, kekayaan dunia, maka berbondong-bondong doanya kepada ALLAH. Dan ajaibnya, Allah beri apa yang dia minta. Si abang rasa dia istimewa.

Si adik pula, hidupnya tidak berubah. Dia masih seorang sederhana, dengan kelemahannya sebagai seorang buta huruf, dia hannya mendapat kerjaya sederhana, terus menjaga rumah pusaka. Si adik, juga rajin berdoa. Si abang tahu, si adik rajin berdoa. Tapi Si Abang melihat, hidup adiknya tidak berubah-ubah.

Lantas satu hari, ketika Si Abang menziarahi adiknya, Si Abang berkata dengan sombong:
“Kau kena berdoa kuat lagi. Tengok aku, berdoa je ALLAH makbulkan. Kau ni tak cukup hampir dengan Allah ni. Berdoa pun masih tengok-tengok kertas. Tak cukup hebat.”

Si Adik tersenyum sahaja. Suka abangnya menegur kerana padanya, teguran abang amat bermakna. Si Adik terus hidup sederhana, di dalam rumah pusaka, dengan doa melihat kertas saban hari, dan kehidupannya tetap tidak berubah. Tidak menjadi kaya seperti abang.

Satu hari, Si Adik meninggal dunia. Ketika Si Abang mengemas-kemas rumah pusaka, dia berjumpa satu kertas. Kertas itu adalah kertas yang adiknya sering pegang ketika berdoa.

Si Abang menangis teresak-esak apabila membaca kertas kecil itu.
Kertas itu tertulis: “ Ya Allah, makbulkan lah segala doa abang aku”
MasyaALLAH…

Si Abang mula membandingkan dirinya dengan adiknya. Adiknya kekal taat kepada ALLAH dan tidak meringan-ringankan urusannya dengan ALLAH SWT. Adiknya, sedikit pun tidak meminta dunia kepada ALLAH, malah tidak meminta apa-apa untuk dirinya. Tetapi adiknya meminta agar segala doa Si Abang dimakbulkan. Si Abang, tidak pernah sedikit pun mendoakan Si Adik. Si Abang mula nampak, rupanya, bukan doa dia yang makbul. Tetapi doa adiknya telah diterima oleh ALLAH SWT, lantas segala doanya menjadi makbul.

Cerita ini meruntun hati saya, dan buat saya sentiasa berfikir panjang.
Kadang-kadang kita, bila Allah realisasikan hajat kita, kita suka mengimbau usaha-usaha kita.
  • "Aku buat beginilah yang jadi begini"
  • "Doa aku makbul seh!"
  • "Aku ni memang Allah sayang. Tengok, semua benda Allah bagi. Aku minta je pun."
Tanpa sedar kita bongkak. Takabbur.

Sedangkan, kita tak tahu, mungkin yang makbul itu adalah doa ibu bapa kita, doa adik beradik kita, doa sahabat-sahabat kita.
Bukannya doa kita.


Cerita itu sangat menyentuh hati saya. Membuatkan setiap kali saya berdoa, saya tidak lupa mendoakan ibu bapa saya, guru-guru saya, keluarga saya, adik beradik saya, sahabat-sahabat karib saya, yang teramat akrab saya sebutkan namanya agar lebih merasai bahawa saya memerlukan mereka mendoakan saya juga.



Kita ini banyak dosa. Banyak hijab.
Mungkin doa orang lain yang lebih bersih hatinya, lebih suci jiwanya yang makbul, menyebabkan rahmat Allah tumpah pada diri kita. Sebab itu jangan berlagak. Jangan tinggi diri. Jangan rasa doa kitalah yang makbul. Pulangkan semuanya kepada Allah. Doa itu sebahagian daripada usaha sahaja sebenarnya. Dan jangan rasa segan nak minta orang lain doakan kita.


Sunday, July 10, 2011

Saturday 9th July - Birthday party without the birthday gals...


Woke up quite late that day. I guess... age must be catching up on me. Lately... bestnya if dapat extra beauty sleep. Funny part... I woke up sekejap almost at the end of Subuh, passed Azim to Bibik, solat and sambung tidur with Adam and Alya for another hour or so. :)

Once awake, I spent 20 minutes to whipped up my caramel pudding while my kids were being fed. Promised to bring something to my Shoppers Tegar birthday bash for Merl and Ramona. Usaha gigih, must buat juga. Seriously, I tak rasa the pudding. Have to ask my Tegar friends. Tak sempat amik picture pon. :)

Around 9am my Bibik went off to pasar. Hem cuak gak ada tak BERSIH kat area pasar TTDI. If Bibik kena cekup ke apa, naye. Siapa nak jaga my kids? Anyway, I managed to spend quality time with my babies - handsome boy Adam Syahmi, pretty girl Alya Firzanah and cute baby Azim Danish (7 kg you all).


Adam and Alya... My darlings...


Me and Azim Danish... Anak Mummy yang tembam...


Bibik balik from pasar and cook for the kids. Yup menu dah determined by Adam and Alya. Lala, the shellfish and not my 2nd sister ye, tumis with sos tiram and daun coriander plus sup ketam. Hubby tahu sure bising coz asyik makan macam restaurant food je ni. Takpa la we are not the type yang eat out so why not prepare good food for the kids right?

I took that opportunity to mandi and bersiap. Once the kids are asleep for their afternoon nap, I pon keluar. Oh no. Lift mati la plak... Huhhhuuu....

To cut things short, managed to reach KJ around 1pm. Perut lapar giler. In the car keep on terbayang Ramona's spaghetti carbonara and Kak Letty's laksa pulas.... Sorry shoppers if I seemed like orang kebulur time tu.. memang lapar giler... GREAT FOOD. VERY DELICIOUS LAKSA, CAKES and PAVLOVA. Best of all GREAT COMPANY. Worth every calories yang masuk badan... hihhiii...



Shoppers Tegar - Kak Letty, Kak Zakiah, Kak Bai, me, Zan, Kak Chik, Kak Fini, anak Kak Fini (sorry tak tanya nama) and Kak Mas. Najwa is the camera woman. Sorry dear takda your pic.


Highlight if the day - PAVLOVA... Yummy...


All the cakes that we had - Pavlova, marbled cheese cake and carrot cake courtesy of Chef Zan and Chef Daniel, cheese cake from Secret Recipe from Kak Fini and hemmm siapa bawa popia goreng you all? I makan je lupa tanya...


Me at the best place in the house... hehhe depan food in the kitchen fully prepared by Chef Letty... This one if tak silap the 5th place I duduk makan. Nasib baik dah kahwin or else kahwin 5 kali? hehehhe


I dedicate this entry to Merl and Ramona...

Happy Belated Birthday ladies...

May Allah bless you always...

Thursday, June 16, 2011

All the kgs that I had and still have....


Somehow last week when I tried on my clothes prior to my pregnancy and I can fit them, suddenly there’s an urge for me to reflect my weight journey.(I am sure some of you might say this is part of my PB promo, tapi after my deliveries memang I ada weight issues and low metabolic rate. I am just sharing my case la. Dulu kala masa kat Aussie I loss weight pon after a year of hard work and crazy diet. Seriously that time I ate veggie only and lots of aerobics.)


Me in 1994. Giler gomox. I am the one in front wearing blue t-shirt.


Me in 1995. Baru sampai Australia and winter time some more. Makan chocolate tak ingat dunia.

Album kena cari you all... Mana ntah simpan. Memang hodoh la.


Me in 1996. My birthday celebration and I was so huge. Banyak betul spare tyres and frustrated tak muat my clothes.

Album kena cari you all... Mana ntah simpan. Memang hodoh la.


Me in mid 1997. Dah start loosing weight. Hard work and lots of empty stomach time.


Me in late 1997. This was taken on a trip to Gold Coast. I came back to Malaysia thereafter for a holiday with new look. My family was really surprised.


Me in 2006. On my engagement day. As slim as my hubby tu.


Me in 2007. Huh tak sangka 10 years I can maintain my weight to be below 60kg. Huhhuu I miss that time la.


Me in 2008. After gave birth to Adam, I managed to reduced my weight to lowest at 64kg before I became pregnant with Alya.


Me in 2009. After I gave birth to Alya my weight ballooned to 75kg. That’s it. Lowest was at 70kg. Tengok the arm and the thigh. Huge...


Me in 2010. Yohoo during early pregnancy of Azim. What huge thighs. Segannya.


Me in 2011. After gave birth to Azim and tlc from Mum during berpantang. Few days of wearing PB.


Me in 2011. After 2 weeks of wearing PB, I managed to reduce my weight to 66 or 67kg. Still long way to go back to my 57kg but will usaha for it. Need to fit my baju nikah and sanding.

Wish me luck all!!!!!

Monday, June 13, 2011

Layan anak-anak


My Adam is now of the age yang tengah giler Transformer and Ultraman. We took him and my pretty Alya to the Curve two weeks ago coz ada promotion on Transformer's merchandise.


I was the one yang beriya suruh hubby bawa the kids to the Curve. Sampai sana Adam dah sibuk nak beli Bumblebee and Optimus Prime (abis dia promote to Tok Mama and Tok Papa of his intent. Oh ye that is the day we came back from BP. Punya semangat, noon sampai KL terus kerah hubby bawa pi the Curve). Well of course banyak Bumblebee and Optimus Prime but harga? Ya Allah, mahalnya coz Adam nak yang big one. He even dah usung one Bumblebee priced at RM200+. My hubby try pujuk beli yang priced at RM50+ but he insisted on buying the big one je. End up, Mr Hubby told him since Mummy is the one yang nak bawa Adam, suruh la Mummy bayar. Sabar je.

Mummy bukan kedekut ye but then beli macam tak berbaloi coz he is too young to appreciate that expensive item (ye la my iPad2 dah abis sompek after 3 days of purchase coz dia dah jatuhkan berkali. From tangga lagi tu). On the spot idea, "Adam nak Transformer ke you want baju Ultraman?". Guess mana superhero yang menang?


Huhhuuhhh Ultraman. Selamat duit I. End up belikan dia a pair of baju Ultraman priced at RM15 je.


Tuesday, June 7, 2011

Momento from TIGS


I was cleaning my handbag and look at what I found.


Ohhhooooo... Actually my dad found it and gave it to me last weekend. For those who are not familiar with the history of the precious item, the name tag was used when I was in form 5. Let me see, dah 18 years la. Ok you all ex-TIGS girls, help me complete the list of prefects at that time.

Head Girl - mua
Assistant Head Girl- Jamuna
Secretary - Azlyn Azwa
Treasurer - Krishnalatha
AJK Discipline - ???
AJK Kebersihan - ???

Who else and what other positions ye? And where are you guys?

Monday, June 6, 2011

Gaya punya pasal


Well, attended a meeting with Khazanah from 4pm till 6pm tadi. Since our boss gave us (me and my collegue) a ride to Menara UEM, I decided to put on my new 7 for all mankind high heel. Gaya mesti ada.



BAD DECISION!!!!!! SILAP BESAR!!!!!

Yup, I had one very comfortable ride in my boss's 5 series but then I had to suffer walking from the meeting location to KL Central (jauh tu since Mercu UEAM is the building fartest from KL Central kat area tu) and from Kerinchi LRT station back to Menara TM.. Huhhhuuu.. Balik office check the height of the shoes... Yohooo... I must be crazy la.... (check the pic below) My dear kasut, I can only wear you in the office la in future. Paling jauh pun will be from my cubicle to the meeting room.



Sunday, June 5, 2011

1st day at work

Officially, today is my first day back in the corporate world... Huhuhhhh... Almost cried when I left my house this morning. My babies... Adam was so understanding - "Mummy work ye". Alya was shouting "Nak Mummy". Azim innocently tried to sleep. Hem Mummy has to work la coz we need the money.

Ya Allah, my prayers and doa for my business to thrive and bloom so I can have more time with my kids and the extra cash (eventually financial freedom) too. Amin....

Alhamdulillah, I am back to my pre-Azim's weight. In fact slimmer la. Thanks to my mum's TLC (tender loving care) while berpantang and thanks to my Premium Beautiful (PB) as well.

By the way, came back from BP yesterday. I had to drive coz hubby outstation. That's it!!! No more long distance driving for me if I can help it. With 3 kids aged below 3 years old in the car, I became so stressed out coz I can't press the gas pedal to the fullest.. hihhiii... Sayang nyawa anak-anak. If I am on my own sure lupa dunia.


Anyway, my kids enjoyed the trip. Adam cried when we started our journey back to KL. He really loves his Tok Mama and Tok Papa's house. We went to BP to attend a wedding hosted by my next door neighbour. Met few schoolmates as well coz the bride's sister is a friend of mine. (Niza Baharaldin, bukan ke kita plan nak jumpa? Where r u?)


Business promotion time!!!!
Thanks to my PB, I can fit the kebaya that I wore back in 2008 for my sis's wedding. Huhhuuuhhh.. Next aim will be to fit in my wedding attire. Psssttt my PB dah makin longgar ni. Kena change size...

JOM BUAT BIZ SAMA-SAMA AND BUAT DUIT SAMA-SAMA